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Posted on 09/18/2006

I have been trying to wrap my head around the word for the longest time. I have seen it in the writings, love letters and poetry of both men and women. But what does it mean? WHat does it really mean?. Who understands.

As usual when I am doing research, I start with my dictionary and Thesaurus and write down every word of explanation and synonym. Then I take each of these words and they get the sane treatment until every word has been cross-referenced against every other. I then go to my quotations and read hundreds of them to get a clear understanding of men and women throughout the ages of thought it's meaning and effect to be upon society.

Descriptive words: ache, crave,wistful, desire, hope, hunger, lust, yearning, interminable, unending, and unattainable. Yuck! Doesn't sound too pretty does it? But we all know that what we long for is the most beautiful creature known to man and G-d. There seems to be a strong emphasis on the physical rather than the esoteric. Worse yet, none of us is worthy of ever getting our hands on our beauty and doomed to a life of pain according to definition. Oh, yes, the playful word wistful that sounds like a daydream on a summer day is described as desire or yearning fringed with melancholy.

May be we can do better with some excerpts from quotations. How's this, "a strong desire especially for something unattainable"--not too heartwarming. "Craving is an intense, urgent or abnormal desire". Abnormal? I don't think there is any thing wrong with me, I only want to love and be loved back? He had "an eager desire, a craving, a morbid appetite." Morbid? This is not the longing I know. Ah, but listen to what the great Confu[kcq]ian philosopher Xan Zi said, "Sacrifices are concerned with the feelings of devotion and longing." To be happily in love it seems then we must all suffer miserably and unendingly. Let's try to get closer to the present century. Anna Freud--"If some longing goes unmet, don't be astonished. We call that life." I wonder if Sigmund knew she was a Confu[kcq]ian?

I know this longing we are feeling is not abnormal. It is the nature of every creature G-d created to be mated. It must couple or die. It will the end of its kind. For homo sapiens G-d gave us a soul and so we long for something deeper than a mate to propagate the species. As James Russell Lowell said, "The Thing we long for, that we are for on transcendent moment." Our soul mate. Orison Scott Harden eluded, "The Creator has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do." Some have glimpse the truth about what longing means and not fallen for the words of doom and gloom.

I have had the longing my entire life. And lately I have begun to wonder if it is dissatisfaction with self or if it was a feeling with real substance behind it. I had to know once and for all if I was wasting my energies wanting something that would never be.

I went into a meditative state and went into my L-ord's house and said, "L-rd, may I ask you a question? Of course, My Child. Is longing something real? Yes, it is. Please, L-rd, tell me its meaning between a woman and a man in a true loving relationship. Child, it is knowing and waiting."

I opened my eyes and I knew immediately what our G-d meant. When you long for your soul mate you know beyond any doubt that he/she is out there. And you wait for that person to show themselves. And it is because of our certainty that we continue to wait. We have to remember things happen in G-d's time not our time. Our year is but a nanosecond to him. We have no idea what he must do to prepare us and our soul mate for each other. Our job is to know and wait as He has said.
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